Something's Fishy

Hello!

I could not really sleep last night, so I decided to paint something with felt-tip pens again :P... And somehow I have to add, I didn't know AT ALL what I was going to paint, but it was FUN, I can tell you :)!!

Something's Fishy

Oh dear. :) I will not explain everything you will see in this picture, though. It reminds me of my "ideal X-mas", although, yes, although I am NOT a fish. Also, I like the other fish doing striptease XD.

Below the X-mas tree, you can even read the words "Something's Fishy", and something REALLY is fishy about this picture. On the TV screen, you can see Kevin screaming because he is home alone... It is available on DVD in 3D now. With subtitles! And extras! Buy it! Buy! BUY!

Also, the fireplace reminds me of Harry Potter for some odd reason (Although I didn't want it to look like this, but it still does... Damnit!!).

I hope you had a night filled with sleep and/or filled with something you liked doing, dears! Have a lovely day and see you again soon!! 

MAYBE...

Am thinking about how to phrase this. Would anybody here would be up for a collaboration on a musical project? I must say, I'd LOVE to participate in FAWM, but then again - Why should I want to wait so long (until February)?

My personal downside right now is that I have no real means to record my singing / my guitar playing. Mainly I write music using a certain program on my PC. I'd love to really work on music with others, no matter if "in person" or "online"...

The mere thought of this just brings joy to my heart. I don't care much about YOUR level of playing your instrument / singing, I think the fun should be the most important point... I must say, I tried installing Audacity quite often and always had trouble with that (The speakers wouldn't work anymore afterwards. D:), but maybe... I can find a solution?

Any instrument would be welcome :D. Genre-wise I am not really focused on "one genre"; it depends on what you guys want to play / what your influences are and I'd just try to mix them together with mine, so that we'd have a totally unique style (In my eyes, probably the best way to go about it!)...

So, all you people, who'd like to participate? :) Please send me a message if you do want to: senor_rina [at] gmx [dot] net (Without the spaces and such!)... Have a lovely day everybody & keep rocking!! ^_^

何の花開いた・・・・・・?

Hello again.

I hope everybody is fine...

Does anybody here know of a challenge based on creative projects I could participate in? It can be anything from drawing / painting, to writing, to composing music, to taking photographs, to sewing, to knitting, to whatever... I just want to share more with you, and I figure a challenge is always welcome nowadays :D. It would enable me to share more of the progress and results I came up with...

Beside that, I really feel more like sharing stuff in tutorials recently. Not just posting the results of what I have done but really sharing how one can come up with their own version? :)

I thought I could share anything from "How to compose a song?" to "How do I make my own tarot spread?" to anything... I must admit, though, I don't really like thinking in boundaries. Even with making music, I have the feeling that e. g. studying harmony doesn't always help you, as there are also exceptional pieces of musical art out there which are e. g. atonal or that use more than just one rhythmic pattern. I have experienced the latter, for example, at the discotheque from time to time, when trying to dance to some songs, and then there were sudden changes of rhythm (e. g. 4/4 became 3/4), and I had trouble keeping up with the dancing...

However, if anybody wants to start writing their own music, I really would love to help. I am by no means a professional teacher, I am more self-taught in music theory than I have ever learned while studying musicology (Which I did at some point in my life, for only one year though.). And I do think harmony can help you with this, even though in the course of time, you maybe will recognise that you are much more free than you maybe have thought :).

So, I am off to search for a good challenge now :D. And think about some tutorials to write for you. If anybody knows of anything, tell me~.

Spellbound...

Hey-dee-ho my dears!

How have you all been doing? I have got some news for you... Maybe not really intriguing, but still NEWS.

At first, I participated in this years NaNoWriMo. I made it through the first days, and wrote most likely about half the words expected (Currently, I am unsure, but I wrote more than 25,000 words). I hope if anybody of you guys participated, that you had a great time; it was surely great for me. There were various reasons I didn't write more, though. I felt like a real failure afterwards, because I didn't make it, but I really had a hard time coming up with much else. I felt that the story I wrote was finished after these 25,000+ words I wrote, too. All in all, it was a dilemma, but I loved getting to write that much :)... Now I am thinking about really revisiting the story, working on it more, and still, well, finishing it? And that is probably the best outcome I could have gotten from NaNoWriMo.

Also, one of the personal conclusions I got off the challenge was that it is not a bad thing to be "not in control" of one's life that much, that, in fact, it is the best way to re-kindle with all kinds of passions one has in life. :) Maybe some of you felt the same, especially since i did not really have a "guideline" for my story, which may also have been a bit tough in the end, but still!

Has anybody of you participated? Did you learn anything from participating (now or beforehand)? I'd really love to hear about that.

Then, I finished one more item off my 101/1001 list (writing 10 poems). That poem which got me there, is the following (translation below as always!):
 

Ein Schritt zurück

Fuß um Fuß setz' ich nach vorne
Dennoch gehe leer ich aus
Ich sage, spreche, rede immer
Doch geh'n mir nie die Wörter aus

Ich sage "nein", will nicht verletzen
Beleidigt geht er nur nach haus
Ich sage "ja", will niemand töten
Weinend reißt sie sich heraus

Ich tue nichts und tue alles
Und sehe jeden Fehler ein
Ich wünschte nur, da wären keine
Ich fühl' mich nutzlos und so klein

Fuß um Fuß setz' ich nach vorne
Schwöre mir, nie steh'n zu bleiben
Die Warnung überhör' ich wirklich
Will keine Sorg' mir einverleiben

Fuß um Fuß, die Strecke lang
Wie lang muss ich noch gehen?
Jeder Schritt ein Schritt zurück
Wann seh' ich Fahnen wehen?

Fuß um Fuß, Leben geht weiter
Die Angst ist ein beliebter Gast
Fuß um Fuß, hinab die Leiter
Solange bis man sich selbst hasst

Jeder Schritt ein Schritt zurück
Ins Land, in dem ich noch Mut hatte
In dem die Fehler mich nicht störten
Wann ich eintreffe, wär mir Latte

Doch leider geht das Leben rund
Ich steh' daneben, am Abgrund
Ich will doch leben, eine Stund
Keine Fehler und kein Mund

***

Translation (rough!):

A step back

Step by step I'm walking onwards
But I am walking empty-handed nevertheless
I am saying, speaking, talking always
But never I am short of words

I'm saying "no", don't want to harm
He's returning home offendedly
I'm saying "yes", don't want to murder
She's removing herself, crying

I'm doing nothing and doing it all
And admitting every mistake (I make)
I only wish there wouldn't be any
I'm feeling useless and so small

Step by step I'm walking onwards
Swearing to myself not to come to a stop
I'm really ignoring the warning
Don't want to swallow any sorrow

Step by step, the path long
How long do I have to walk on?
Every step a step back
When will I see flags waving?

Step by step, life goes on
The fear is a popular guest
Step by step, down the ladder
Until one hates oneself

Every step a step back
Into the land where I had courage
Where the mistakes didn't matter
The time of arrival wouldn't matter to me

However sadly, life goes round
I'm standing (somewhere) off, at the abyss
I just want to live, for an hour
No mistakes and no mouth

***

So, that's that for now. As X-mas is approaching, I wish each and everyone reading the best X-mas (whether you celebrate it or not) EVER :D.

Love,

~R.

Work In Progress (WIP) - Beautifying my FOLDER ^_^ (pt. 1)

Hello,

how are you all? :)

I got to buy *some stuff* at a shop in our district town today [transparent paper in several colours for the lantern I am planning to make, AND stickers, a set of three different washi tapes, and 100 separator sheets (I think that's enough :D.).

AND I decided to sit down and make the first separator sheet for the folder (I decided it would be Japanese ^o^), opened a picture on my pc and drew the entire character free-handedly onto a piece of white paper, and then glued it to the separator sheet. It is NOT finished yet, as it will be more colourful and such, but as for "right now", I feel that is enough:

Anger from the Pixar movie "Inside Out"
defending my Japanese skills of doom!

He says: "Be careful, I can speak Japanese!!" ^^ Right now I wonder why I didn't let him speak one of the German dialects (Öcher Platt) ;). Ah well, either way, he is cute!!

This is for the Japanese section... There will come more and more and more :). Look forward to that!! ^.^

Have a nice rest of the day, you guys. I hope we'll see each other soon!!

"Aus Spiel wird Ernst", or: How I almost had the chance to win a contest...

Well, well, well, my little droogies! HELLO!

There was a contest taking place recently, and I wanted to send a poem for said contest. Only downside was: When I was done writing I noticed the deadline had been several weeks beforehand. So what to do, I asked myself? I didn't want to NOT share it after all, but I was scared... Scared of rejection, maybe. Or maybe even worse things.

Fact is, I personally don't think it is that bad. But judge for yourself, I guess. I will try to translate it, too, because it is in German.

*ahem* ;)

Aus Spiel wird Ernst

Nach dem Regen stieg die Sonne,
Langte zaghaft nach dem Grund,
Umtanzte selbst die kleinsten Tiere,
Verschlang die Nacht mit ihrem Mund.

Unendlich schien die Nacht zu währen,
Die Sonne schien zur Mittagsstund‘.
So tummelten sich in Wärme Schnecken,
Unentdeckt, ein schöner Fund!

Die Kinder spielten fleißig draußen,
Ließen sich nicht halten nun.
Das Leben brannte in den Kleinen,
Es gab so viel zu seh‘n und tun.

Die Füßchen rannten durch das Gras,
Unwissend von dem kleinen Schatz.
Der kleinste Junge, hoch gesprungen,
Landete auf diesem Platz.

„Huch, das wollte ich nicht tun;
Was ist denn bloß geschehen?
Habe ich in all dem Spiel
Die Schneckchen nicht gesehen?“

Und alle Kinder fingen an
Zu weinen und zu flehen,
Dass man ihnen vergebe nun
Fürs Schnecken-echt-nicht-sehen.

„Nein, das macht nichts - wirklich“,
Meinte der Vater zu den Kindern.
„Die Tiere spüren keine Schmerzen,
Sonst müsste man’s verhindern.“

* * *

Play gets serious

The sun rose after rain,

Carefully reached for the ground,

Danced around even the smallest animals,

Engulfed the night with her mouth.

The night seemed to last infinitely,

The sun shone at noon's hour.

So snails scrimmaged in warmth,

Unfound, a great discovery!

Diligently, the children played outside,

Now didn't let anybody hold them back.

Life burnt inside these little ones,

There was so much to see and do.

The little feet ran through the grass,

 Unknowing of the little treasure.
The smallest boy, who jumped high,

Landed on this place.

"Yikes, I did not want to do that;

 What is it that happened?

Didn't I notice the little snails

In all this playing?"

And all the children began

To cry and to beg,

That somebody'd forgive them

For really-not-seeing-the-snails.

"No, this doesn't matter - really",

The father told the children.

"The animals don't feel pain,

Otherwise one'd have to prevent it."

I know the sense behind this may be controversial, but just let me say that I wanted to make the reader think about this -- I, personally, don't think the father IS right, because I believe feelings are not something only appearing in humans.

I didn't want to write more, though. I have my reasons, and one reason is that I wouldn't want to raise my index finger and shake it because that won't lead anywhere in my opinion.

What do you think? I hope you won't be angry because I rarely ever update here... :( I hope I will be able to do this more often as of soon [I am planning something AWESOME with a folder I just bought, and may be posting WIPs in this case ^o~...].

Have a nice time, until the next time we meet again.

~R.

They're swimming in mineral water.

Hey dears!

How are you all? After my sister drew a minion today for one beloved person of ours, who happens to love the minions from the Despicable Me movies, I decided it was time to draw/paint something... I chose felt tips again. It is an underwater scene featuring all kinds of sea creatures... And I like it, really *so proud*.

If you do notice something strange here, I will not blame you for certain :P. I love the scared octopus, the chilling jellyfish, the sea horses with their share of the gold treasure, the waving sea star, the cool seals, the hungry koi carp with its blueberry muffin, the funky disco ray, Spongebob, the school of fish, the nosy sun, and what else is on this picture. :D


I hope you like it, too. Do you have any favourite animals inhabiting the sea? I tried to include all of mine here, but to be open, I guess there are many, many more!! :)


Have a nice day!!

Spinning Towards The Moon Again

I came up with a new poem. :) I will keep judging my own efforts behind the door and will fearlessly share it with all of you, who may be reading this right now.

 Spinning Towards The Moon Again

The ghosts writing wind into silence
Are the most striving beings;
They may not strive for gold nor fame,
But what may come is their goal of being.

Their goal is being once again
Held by all their loved ones.
What they may find is extatic fever,
But come the day, their time is gone.

And their heads will be
Spinning towards
The moon again.

I know it may sound odd, but to me, this has a meaning. It even reminds me of some fairly old poems of mine which I wrote at some point... ;^^; But taking a step back and watching myself from a distance - no matter if I mean my past or present self - is sometimes really beneficial.

(Also, please excuse any grammar / vocabulary mistakes in this. I'm certainly not a native English speaker, although I often wish I were... :P)

How have you guys been doing, by the way? I have had a rough time of ups and several downs; I even thought about reviving my blog with all negative feelings and thoughts assembled. It is not like I think it is forbidden to do something like this, BUT I think it would have pulled me down severely in the end, and I want to get better...

Have a nice rest of the day, dears. See you again in a hundred years or so :P!! (Judging how often I updated my blog recently, this sounds pretty accurate...)

Getting the chaos in order!

Hey hey.

When looking at this blog (Believe me, I do this occasionally :P), I often feel like somebody punched me in the stomach region for a reason. It is utterly chaotic - and not in a good way -, there are broken links sometimes extremely often, which reallyreallyREALLY disturbs me and I haven*t done anything here for quite a while.

I know the latter is my own fault, but I*d love to have a blog that is more "complete", less "destroyed" by the time it existed, more "informative", and above all, I want to be more "COMMITTED" concerning this place. Maybe I will create a new one, but I guess it would be a better idea to re-model this one, delete some older posts (those with the broken links / pictures :() and whatnot.

However, this would probably feel like branding away memories altogether, as many works were linked to rather happy memories! :( So what should I do?

I don*t know. I hope you guys have an idea. Would you mind if I started a new blog somewhere else? Would you delete older entries, despite them being possible memories I am very fond of? What would you like to see / hear here? :)

I hope you don*t mind me asking, too. Have a wonderful day, and hopefully see / hear (from) you soon!

~The Rina

Let a new life begin, as soon as it grows from the earth!

 Hey there.

I am currently in a bit of a gloomy mood, I am afraid. Anyways, I *tried* to write a poem about the way I feel right now, and it is in German - once again -, but I shall try and translate it ...

Neues Leben Sprießt(?)

Eingefangen zwischen Wörtern
Horche ich und blick* hinauf.
Ich sehe nichts mehr außer Fragen.
Und sogar diese stehen drauf,
Sich in den Weg zu stellen mir.
Ich weiß, ich kann nichts sagen
Und weiß ich viel, so weiß ich nichts,
Wer kann mir das erörtern?

Das Leben geht wohl seinen Weg,
Und ich muss ihm wohl folgen.
Und ich weiß, ich soll dankbar sein,
Doch weil ich eh nur Zweifel heg*,
Geht*s weder *raus, noch dort hinein.
Entführe ich nur die Gefühle,
Wenn ich mit meinesgleichen spiele?
Und was, wenn ich mich gleich hinleg*?

Ich glaube, bald und jetzt (zu spät),
Dass sich das Tor nun schließe.
Ich stehe betend vor der Tür,
Bitt* um Einlass, sogleich, hier.
Und rüttel* an dem Husten jener,
Die sich nur grämen wegen mir.
Auf dass ein neues Leben starte,
Sobald es aus dem Boden sprieße!

Ich weiß, ich sage wenig diesen ...
Vielleicht versteht ihr meine Angst.
Doch will ich mich jetzt nicht entschließen!
Egal, ob du jetzt um mich bangst,
Ich werde, werde nicht es tun,
Egal, ob du jetzt nach mir langst,
Es ist nun Zeit, mich auszuruhen,
Und selbst wenn nicht, ich denk* in Miesen.

Translation :

New Life*s Growing(?)

Caught between the words,

I am listening and looking up.

I don*t see anything except for questions.

And even those are turned on by

Getting in my way.

I know, I cannot say anything

And knowing much, I don*t know anything,

Who can explain this to me?

Well, life is going its way,

And well, I have to follow it.

And I know I should be grateful,

But since I only nourish doubts,

It*s going neither outside, nor inside.

Do I just kidnap feelings

When playing with those like me?

And what if I lay down right now?

I believe that soon and now (too late)

The door will close down now.

I stand infront of the door, praying,

Begging to be let in, right now, here.

And I am shaking the coughing of those

Who are ashamed because of me.

Let a new life begin,

As soon as it grows from the earth!

I know this means nothing to those ...

Maybe you understand my fear.

But I don*t want to decide right now!

No matter if you are scared for me,

I will, will not do it.

No matter, if you want to grab and beat me,

It is now time to relax,

And even if not, I am thinking in red numbers.

Wow, translating is HARD. Especially since there*s a lot of colourful speech in here. I guess nobody will get the content either, and nobody will understand what each line means, but still, I am kind of content with this poem. Even though translating is HARD. D:

Thanks for reading, though. :)

Wo Sein Hintern Ist! (Poem in German)

I was booored, and once I am booored, I need to get ouuut of this staaate of miiind. So I wrote a poem. :)

Wo Sein Hintern Ist

Liebes Kind, dein Leben ist,

Was gut und schlecht und Beben ist.

Dieser Mann, ein Internist,

Sieht nicht mal, wo sein Hintern ist.

Und pupsen kann er auch ganz gut,

Und schnappt sich seinen Bauchtanzgurt,

Mit dem die Stärken lauter würden,

Doch sieht er nichts vor lauter Hürden,

Und schwebt hinfort, als er sich wundert,

Mit KMH der Marke Hundert!

Transl.

Where His Butt Is

Dear child, your life is

What is good and bad and earthquake.

This man, an internis,

Does not see where his butt is.

And he can also fart very well,

And grabs his belly dancing belt,

With whom the strenghts*d get louder,

 But he doesn*t see anything because of the hurdles,

And floats away once he is wondering,

With a speed of 100 KMH!

I know it is just the most beautiful piece of poetry I have ever written. Somehow I cannot stop grinning for this reason ... :P

That said, I also worked on some more music today, but I desperately need to record my vocals before putting these music masterpieces online :PP.

And soon I hope I will be able to watch the movie Snow Sharks, because I can. :PPP

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (A tiny bit late, but still ...)

Hel-di-lo everybody!

How have you all been? While you have been busy doing whatever was on your mind & most likely being productive beyond my own imagination, I have been a lazy bum and didn*t do much. I played the guitar every now and then, figured out how to play parts of "Jingle Bells" on my own for Crizzlemas, & all in all have not been a really good person. Part of this is to be blamed on my depressive side coming in and saying HELLO! every now and then. But I am trying to shake it off.

I know not many people over here are regular readers, but if you have stayed with me no matter what, I*d like to thank you deeply, sincerely. I hope everybody got into the new year with a lot of fun and joy attached to it, and that you don*t have any headaches (I did have headaches for several days in a row now & it turns out I am not really at my best health right now anyways, so ... Yeah. :( *complains*).

I want to get more active over here, too. After all, I love this blog so much so why should I deny updating it? :P As for this year, I didn*t make many resolutions, but those I did make (There are two), I hope I will get to work on a LOT :). One is health-related and the other one is career-related ^^.

Thank you for reading. ^.^ BYE!! :)