Hello again!!
I just ordered four (!!!(!(!!!))) books (including two (!!!) manga (!!!) *slaps herself*). The manga are just from the series Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon/Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon/Sailor Moon/whatever, and the books are "Find Your Happy" (by Shannon Kaiser) and "Living Out Loud" (by Keri Smith). I think both can really help me right now, because I felt / feel somewhat stuck in a rut (creatively, for example).
If anybody has an idea how to overcome this & you say it before Thursday, I salute you. (Why am I saluting everybody? ANYWAYS!!)
Last night I drew/"painted" (with felt-tips) a picture featuring zombies doing zumba. Zumba zombies are well-known for shaking back and forth a lot as well as for having a great feeling for rhythm, or at least a better feeling for rhythm than usual zombies, which means basically that their feeling for rhythm sucks. Ahem.
Here*s the picture :
And you have guessed right ("I haven*t guessed ANYTHING!!"), I listened to Lady Gaga*s "Do What U Want" ... A lot. I somehow love my zomba crowd. :D
I couldn*t scan the picture decently, so this is a photograph of it, d*uh. But I hope you will like it nevertheless and forgive me for my absence. I wuv you all!!
SOMEHOW I refused to get online yesterday, which now randomly reminds me of the movie "Blades Of Glory". "I WON A LOT OF RADIO CONTESTS BECAUSE I REFUSED TO GET OFF THE LINE!!!" (or something like this) XD~.
And that said, the title of the song I started working on yesterday reminds me of a lot of different things that appeared in my life. I just couldn*t come up with anything else. "Eat Me" is the title. It was more of a trial-and-having-the-option-for-error thing, but it actually sounds like a nice idea. I tried to be more minimalistic this time. Usually, when writing songs, I tend to go overboard with everything; I want every instrument to play something else, and so on ... There is an experimental "touch" "Eat Me" delivers, too, because I used two probably unrelated scales in the song, which is to say, "No harmonised major scale this time!!"
EVERYBODY goes POUT. I actually love the idea, though. Especially the ending is precious. And I sense my songs are getting longer again ... Which is good, too.
Anyways, I spoke way to much : Have some VV music. And refuse to get off the line~!!
Hello ...
Today isn*t one of the days I post something really creative, it is just some kind of "apology", even though it goes much deeper than this. I am currently wondering whether there really is a link between something like creativity in a general way AND being extremely depressive from time to time, and no, I do not mean "depressed" but really "depressive".
It somehow reminds me of the 99U talk Brené Brown has given which was posted on Youtube, even though it is really a question that is on my mind a lot. The talk is about creativity and vulnerability, and maybe this vulnerability is linked to being depressive in the first place. However, I don*t want to really put everything of this in the same box.
Somehow, I have been struggling with depression and it really kept me away from doing something I*d enjoy doing. I don*t know whether you know this, but when I personally am in a dark place mentally, I think I don*t deserve being happy, or I think that I don*t want to make a mess doing things I actually love doing, like, if I wrote a song in this state of mind, it would feel like being violent towards music, and this is a thing I don*t want to end up doing because music is important to me.
I really don*t mean to talk about stripping down to your soul and telling me what you are struggling with, unless you*d like to tell me, but ... It has been on my mind. Probably because I*d feel better then, because this would mean I have something I could always be proud of (But then again, how should I know this is me when I am never *doing* it?). Probably because it really is something that could help others because they*d understand themselves better.
