Dream interpretation.

This is my version of a dream interpretation for myself. I remember several weeks / months ago, I had a dream of wanting to get my first tattoo, and in the dream, I wanted to get an altered version of the above picture tattooed onto my left upper arm. It had the Finnish flag instead of the Japanese though, and it also featured lines that hinted at earthquakes in my holy opinion. The rest was pretty much the same.

The thing that broke away from the upper is a piece of the moon, the upper is the remaining part of the moon, of course. And there are people sitting on the piece that broke away ... I still don*t really know what this was supposed to mean, but since I am really planning on getting this tattooed, I need to find ways of getting the original picture for the copy I will get on my arm. Also, I wanted to continue practicing painting and drawing, and using my brand new oil pastels ;D.

I hope you like the picture now that you understand it a bit better ... Have a nice rest of the day!

Re-upload & some more words.

shrRî.ngAra karanA bleu - The Fallen Angel ~With Bleeding Wings~

Hello dears,

how are you all? I hope for massive happiness and excitement inside your hearts~. As you can see above, there*s a link to the song "The Fallen Angel ~With Bleeding Wings~". I uploaded it again since the old download link was deleted because it was too old, so click it, enjoy it, like it, comment to it, subscribe to it, and please teach me along the way that this is neither YT nor FB. ;P Nah, I really hope you like it. It is quite old actually!

I actually recently discovered that I really do need some encouragement every day - for many, this would*ve been something obvious actually. I came across a lot of motivating videos and words recently, and thought I should share them with you, so here we go :

•  Maybe you have watched this video beforehand; I really love it ... It is well-made, and the message itself is very encouraging, in any way possible. And it is not even that long.
• There is a song by the band Santa Hates You which is called "Sexuelle Unordnung", and despite it seeming to be really about sex in the first place, I think the message of the song itself goes way deeper than just to this layer of reality. To me, it really means that you have to walk your own path in life, that you should not give a damn about other people*s version of a "perfect life", and that you have to create your own freedom, instead of waiting for others to free you from the imaginary chains you put around your body when listening to others.
• Then there is TinyBuddha of course. I think I linked to this site beforehand, but it really does help a great deal to read through the texts they published on the site. Actually, when in doubt, I check out TinyBuddha :).
• And most likely, you have heard of the movie "The Secret" beforehand, too. I must say I get the vibe many people misinterpret the messages delivered in this movie, and that it is important to pay attention to it in detail ... Basically the movie*s about the Law Of Attraction. I heard about this beforehand, and thought, "Why should my wishes come true?", but then tried it out and I must say -- So far so many things I really wished for were fulfilled. The most important thing in the video imho is that it is is said that if you get the feeling that you could do something this or that way in order to achieve your goal, and you are scared of that or too lazy, you have to push yourself to do whatever came into your mind! Let*s say for example, you wished for a new friend, because you are new in town. You do the wishing, you also started using your imagination as a power tool to visualise how it would be to meet that new friend and spend time with them, what you*d do together, what you*d tell them, how you*d treat each other, etc. Once you have done this, the wish itself is not fulfilled yet; of course you have to work on it (And, to be frank, the movie itself never says at any part that the wish is brought to you without any effort from your side!) ... Then you have the idea, "I could go into a park", but the weather seems not that sunny or you are scared that you might say something stupid once you are there ... And here the magic of blocking everything happens. So, first of all, express your wish (Mentally, by writing, by singing it, by drawing/painting it, by ... Whatever comes to your mind really!), believe that it is reachable for you, trust your gut feelings, put effort into getting it done, and the right circumstances and people will be "delivered". That*s how I came to understand it, and it really works, believe me. You only need to find the passion hidden inside & believe in its might.
• And there*s another movie that I find very encouraging, called "Yes Man" (Yesyesyes, the one featuring Jim Carrey & Zooey Deschanel). It is an awesome video about staying open to new possibilities and the adventure of life all in all. Say yes to the opportunities arising. Of course you needn*t say yes to your spam mails, but if you want to do something and wished for this, you need to say YES to it in order to make it happen :D!
• Also, other blogs can be a source of inspiration, happiness and excitement. Same goes for your friends and family ... :) And, in some cases, reading through interpretations of one*s horoscope, numeroscope, or palms* lines can help. Why? Because you get to think about yourself. Is this true? Is this not true? You have to decide all that for yourself, and once you get more insight into your abilities, you will feel better. :)

I also recently made a bucket list and have worked on achieving those goals ever since. It goes greatly so far, and it is real fun. :) After all, you maybe cannot reach all those goals within a short amount of time, but it is a good feeling to be sure you are getting closer to them.

How do you stay motivated?

Brave people*s lullaby?

Oh man, you may have thought I have left this place, never to return again. I haven*t. In fact, we have done a lot in this house, meaning PAINTING my rooms, for instance. I shall upload pictures as soon as I get around to taking them :P. One room is turquoise (the one with my bed), the other is orange (the one with the music instruments in it).

I got the idea for those colours because I like them (especially turquoise; it is my favourite colour!), but also because I read they are good feng-shui-wise. Now I don*t know much about feng shui; stating the opposite would be spreading a lie; BUT! I read that orange is good for creativity, and that turquoise and blueish colours in particular are good for bedrooms. That said, I want to try it out :). We mixed both colours ourselves, too. Turquoise contained two parts blue and one part green, mixed with a LOT of white (But not too much, since I didn*t want it to be that bright!), the orange was mixed with three parts orange and the rest of the white. It is not extremely bright either, yet the room looks bigger now. Same goes for the bedroom. Especially the turquoise turned out a little neon-like, which I definitely approve of! :)

Even though I did that, I didn*t do MUCH creative stuff lately. But on Monday, I bought myself oil pastels and two notebook-like things, and drew a friend of mine (Her name is Kei*). ^^ I already am planning on more "portraits", yet ... I need to learn to handle the oil pastels :D (It*s weird when not being used to using them).

I also FINALLY got around to adding some things to my wishlist, including a pack of 24 pieces of FIMO (in different colours), and also some fabric paints - both for light fabric, and for dark one. I *hope* that the dark one includes black t-shirts. The plan is now to buy some basic t-shirts & paint on them. Write on them. Draw on them. Whatever. I might even end up writing down musical notes for songs onto them if I don*t get anything else to use for this purpose.

As for the FIMO, I want to make some jewellery out of this. :) Mainly I am thinking of a pendant for a necklace; it should be inspired by somebody who I really, really, REALLY like a lot. Also, I want to start painting on flower cachepots! Since spring is approaching and such, haha.

So, after some winter sleep, I am finally getting back to normal!! And that*s it. The brave people*s lullaby. Sleep well, my dears~!

There is a place that only the night people know.

& Hello once again.

It is night time right now, hence the title. I am awake right now, too (Nooo, I guess you thought I*d be typing these entries while sleeping, eh? You were WRONG!).

The good thing about being awake at night time is that you have the most brilliant ideas (at least many people I know support these wise words ;D). However, I have been rather creative with ideas recently, too, no matter at what day time, and I want to share with you ...

... THE LIST. OF DOOM ... & PROJECT IDEAS!

My step sister*s pregnant right now, and I did promise a very close friend* of mine to make her one for each of her children, too : A quilt. I guess this is a project that demands some persistence, but still it is possible to do. I also recently saw some fabrics that were a-effing-mazing, and I really should do this!

Maybe I could make some (simple) music instruments. I actually used to have an instruction for this in a book :D. I also saw that some page (Thomann, I think) sells "Build your own electric guitar" kits, and this is a-effing-mazing, too, because I can ask my stepfather* to help me build it ... AND I can still work on the design/print myself and so on. I have never done this, though.

I want to craft some lanterns for Martin*s Day (because I love that day!). Also, kites are great, aren*t they? (Mhm!) I don*t mean those things you yourself hang in (even though that sounds exciting :D), but those things with some cord attached that you get to fly in the air then ... ^o^ Anyways, I want to make a kite myself. And a lantern!

Maybe some things I can wrap around books (like a wrapper). With related images to the single books ;).

I also want to maybe post some HTML (& maybe CCS) tutorials for web design.

Another idea is to make clothes for other people around me ... ^^ And I want to make a certain kind of belt for myself!! Won*t tell you the entire idea until it*s done, though. However, talking about this now, I also want to make clothes for myself :).

And besides that, I want to participate in the February Album Writing Month, because I miss composing & I really think it would be an awesome idea! And the National Novel Writing Month has to be successfully done, too. Maybe I will have the chance to go to a music festival next year, so I will need some things then, too.

I am also planning to write more songs, more poems, more stories (or any at all *hides*), and to draw and paint more/at all next year!! :) I hope you will like the results aswell.

Have a great time, until we meet again!!

Not about heartache.

Glad that you are fine,
I am wandering around,
Seeking for myself,
Finding no way out.

Silently embracing
What happened to be you
No-one can listen to me
No-one does like you do

And even though you*re facing
This hole of endless dirt
It*s time and place embracing
Lonely, I am hurt ...

Hello,

and sorry for the fact I haven*t posted anything in here lately. I was really busy, to be frank. Anyways! I "took advantage" of a situation that arose two days ago (Thursday) and wrote a poem to sort of "deal with this better".

It is not about heartache or about a romantic-love situation. In fact, it is about the shadow of a friendship that sneaked out the door years ago ... And it still hurts sometimes to read things this person wrote about me, even though I will not go into detail with this.

I hope you will like it nevertheless!

Fallen Through The Wonders ...

Hello again,

let*s start this entry with a new poem, shall we? :D

These white stairs to heaven
Are world-wide wonders, also given
Into my hands, and blood is flowing
Down where heaven*s doors are glowing.

And while the music*s gently throbbing,
The world keeps getting ever clearer.
And when it*s vanished in the dusk,
I sense that we are getting nearer.

Sheer wonders held by eyes now staring,
Embraced, but falling then apart.
I wonder why it*s me now caring,
about the end, about the start.

The poem is called "Fallen Through The Wonders ..." and I already posted it at my DeviantArt anyways :). I do hope you like it after all.

Also, even though I know I have been absent for an eternity of time, I wasn*t being lazy or avoiding anything creative. In fact, I started writing a myriad of songs as it seems but I am not sure about whether or not I like them that much yet. I also re-discovered some older songs of mine, and how awesome they were :D, and I will post as many of them as soon as possible. :)

I hope you are having a great time until the next entry (and also in general). Have a nice evening/night/morning/day, whatever refers to you and your time at home ;).

All the best from me to you!! 

PS : It was inspired by a video/song I watched/listened to actually. ;)

Wide-eyed wanderers, unite!

I was never gone :D. Maybe I was a little distracted at some times, but I didn*t forget about this place and I come bearing one gift (Actually I have got five in the back ... I am just to shy to post them all now ;___; ... However, if you really want me to, I will post them soon, too!).

Yesterday I decided to record myself singing, and even though I did make several mistakes most likely, I like the results. I sang, in the following order, "Farbenspiel Des Winds" (The English title*s "Colours Of The Wind" I guess, and it is from Disney*s Pocahontas), "Tonleitern Und Arpeggios" ("Scales And Arpeggios" is the English title I think; it is from Disney*s Aristocats), "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" (by Elton John; it was part of the songs sung in Disney*s Lion King ...), "Memory" from the musical Cats, and "Spiegelbild" ("Reflection"; from Disney*s Mulan) ...

Here I will only give you "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" by Elton John. Please don*t be angry because of the bad quality; I used my mp3 player to record it ... And I know part of the text is wrong, but I didn*t want to record it just another time to make it more perfect ... :\ Please don*t be angry. You can find the file here. °^^° What do you think?