何の花開いた・・・・・・?

Hello again.

I hope everybody is fine...

Does anybody here know of a challenge based on creative projects I could participate in? It can be anything from drawing / painting, to writing, to composing music, to taking photographs, to sewing, to knitting, to whatever... I just want to share more with you, and I figure a challenge is always welcome nowadays :D. It would enable me to share more of the progress and results I came up with...

Beside that, I really feel more like sharing stuff in tutorials recently. Not just posting the results of what I have done but really sharing how one can come up with their own version? :)

I thought I could share anything from "How to compose a song?" to "How do I make my own tarot spread?" to anything... I must admit, though, I don't really like thinking in boundaries. Even with making music, I have the feeling that e. g. studying harmony doesn't always help you, as there are also exceptional pieces of musical art out there which are e. g. atonal or that use more than just one rhythmic pattern. I have experienced the latter, for example, at the discotheque from time to time, when trying to dance to some songs, and then there were sudden changes of rhythm (e. g. 4/4 became 3/4), and I had trouble keeping up with the dancing...

However, if anybody wants to start writing their own music, I really would love to help. I am by no means a professional teacher, I am more self-taught in music theory than I have ever learned while studying musicology (Which I did at some point in my life, for only one year though.). And I do think harmony can help you with this, even though in the course of time, you maybe will recognise that you are much more free than you maybe have thought :).

So, I am off to search for a good challenge now :D. And think about some tutorials to write for you. If anybody knows of anything, tell me~.

Getting the chaos in order!

Hey hey.

When looking at this blog (Believe me, I do this occasionally :P), I often feel like somebody punched me in the stomach region for a reason. It is utterly chaotic - and not in a good way -, there are broken links sometimes extremely often, which reallyreallyREALLY disturbs me and I haven*t done anything here for quite a while.

I know the latter is my own fault, but I*d love to have a blog that is more "complete", less "destroyed" by the time it existed, more "informative", and above all, I want to be more "COMMITTED" concerning this place. Maybe I will create a new one, but I guess it would be a better idea to re-model this one, delete some older posts (those with the broken links / pictures :() and whatnot.

However, this would probably feel like branding away memories altogether, as many works were linked to rather happy memories! :( So what should I do?

I don*t know. I hope you guys have an idea. Would you mind if I started a new blog somewhere else? Would you delete older entries, despite them being possible memories I am very fond of? What would you like to see / hear here? :)

I hope you don*t mind me asking, too. Have a wonderful day, and hopefully see / hear (from) you soon!

~The Rina

This is my life ... :)

Those who have a certain song from the movie "Fight Club" stuck inze brrain now, I salute you.

And that said, HELLO!! :)

I figured I never really shared much more of my life with you guys, so there you go. Moments taken from my life ... Enjoy. :)

Recently, we saw ducklings in a city close to where I live. I hope you can spot them on this picture (It is a little hard, but you will eventually see them --- I hope?) :).

This is the book I am currently reading (Danny Wallace*s "Yes Man"). I love drinking tea, too, in my Barbapapa cup, because Barbapapa brings back happy memories ... =) The book*s also pretty good so far!!

Recently I cut my hair ... It was pretty long beforehand, and yes, I did that all myself. :)

Some time afterwards, I also shaved my hair. There are more steps yet to come ... As in, applying bleach + dying the hair again in brighter colours :).

By the way! Since I am a little suffering from Blogger*s Block as of now, I*d like to ask YOU : What would you like to read? Is there anything you are interested in, or that you*d love to read more about? :)

Since I really wanted to post more photos, this is some kind of attempt to do better. :) Maybe you will see more "artistically worthy of recognition" photos, but as of now, deal with the ducklings :P ... :D

THE COMING OUT.

Hello ...

Today isn*t one of the days I post something really creative, it is just some kind of "apology", even though it goes much deeper than this. I am currently wondering whether there really is a link between something like creativity in a general way AND being extremely depressive from time to time, and no, I do not mean "depressed" but really "depressive".

It somehow reminds me of the 99U talk Brené Brown has given which was posted on Youtube, even though it is really a question that is on my mind a lot. The talk is about creativity and vulnerability, and maybe this vulnerability is linked to being depressive in the first place. However, I don*t want to really put everything of this in the same box.

Somehow, I have been struggling with depression and it really kept me away from doing something I*d enjoy doing. I don*t know whether you know this, but when I personally am in a dark place mentally, I think I don*t deserve being happy, or I think that I don*t want to make a mess doing things I actually love doing, like, if I wrote a song in this state of mind, it would feel like being violent towards music, and this is a thing I don*t want to end up doing because music is important to me.

I really don*t mean to talk about stripping down to your soul and telling me what you are struggling with, unless you*d like to tell me, but ... It has been on my mind. Probably because I*d feel better then, because this would mean I have something I could always be proud of (But then again, how should I know this is me when I am never *doing* it?). Probably because it really is something that could help others because they*d understand themselves better.