Stupid Rina. Stupid, stupid ME. Yesterday, I cut myself accidentally with an axe. Don*t worry, my thumb is okay, but it is still hurting sometimes - when touching stuff -, and I don*t really have the will to draw anything right now. I am sorry.
I promise I will get back to doing something with this blog as soon as possible, especially since it means a lot to me, and I couldn*t get this out of my mind.
On the lighter side : On Friday, we found a great place to buy fabric at ... Not online, no. It is very close to where I live. Am looking forward to working with awesome fabric and presenting you the benefits of sewing ;)!!
Much love from me at this point!
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Thursday, August 21, 2014
In the mood for some royalty?
Heyhey and welcome to day 3 of the first QUARTERLY CREATIVE PROJECT. :) Before I start I wanted to mention to the people reading and living in Germany : Please - if you like to, of course! - go and buy the newest issues of "Simply Kreativ" AND the special the magazine "Brigitte" just released this month for sewing, knitting, crocheting, patchwork, embroidering, etc. Both are really good, and I bought them myself yesterday! They are even cat-approved!!
Yoshi* likes the articles, as well as the gimmicks of the "Simply Kreativ" mag. ^^
Next, of course, I drew a portrait today :). This time, it was still not "perfect" BUT I can see some progress, BUT you have to make sure not to laugh, *kay? That is because I chose a character we all met at some point, and not a "real human being" (except for those doing readings (cartomancy) with skat cards), but I am talking too much again ...
Ladies and Gentlemen!! Here he is!!
I guess you guys know who he is already? If not, here is the comparison picture, also for reference on what the effing eff I did wrong this time. But again, what is perfection? An enemy. That*s right *nods*!
Hahaha :D. I hope you like what you see. If not, still go and buy those magazines :). If you live here, that is!
Love you!!
Yoshi* likes the articles, as well as the gimmicks of the "Simply Kreativ" mag. ^^
Next, of course, I drew a portrait today :). This time, it was still not "perfect" BUT I can see some progress, BUT you have to make sure not to laugh, *kay? That is because I chose a character we all met at some point, and not a "real human being" (except for those doing readings (cartomancy) with skat cards), but I am talking too much again ...
Ladies and Gentlemen!! Here he is!!
I guess you guys know who he is already? If not, here is the comparison picture, also for reference on what the effing eff I did wrong this time. But again, what is perfection? An enemy. That*s right *nods*!
Hahaha :D. I hope you like what you see. If not, still go and buy those magazines :). If you live here, that is!
Love you!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
2!! Peter, please don*t hate me for this!!
*talks to herself* "This is about making progress ... This is about making progress ... This is about-" OH, HAI.
So, this is the result of the second portrait I tried drawing, and I am stressing the word "tried" here. This time, it features a famous person, namely "PS" of the bands/projects Project Pitchfork, Santa Hates You, and ImAtem. Well, these are the ones I have heard so far. They are actually really good; you should listen to their music *advertises*.
Anyways, I tried drawing him. The result was a ... I cannot describe it. I feel so ashamed, and also, it is barely recognisable. I am sorry, PS, you certainly don*t look like thiiis~!! :(
But, this is about progress. I might get back to drawing him again once I feel more comfy drawing portraits. As of now, I am not content with this at all. But this is (also) probably my perfectionism speaking. Hm. Anyways, here it is :
TADAAA! I know you can hardly see it. I didn*t drew the left ... Unfortunately.
BLAH.
So, this is the result of the second portrait I tried drawing, and I am stressing the word "tried" here. This time, it features a famous person, namely "PS" of the bands/projects Project Pitchfork, Santa Hates You, and ImAtem. Well, these are the ones I have heard so far. They are actually really good; you should listen to their music *advertises*.
Anyways, I tried drawing him. The result was a ... I cannot describe it. I feel so ashamed, and also, it is barely recognisable. I am sorry, PS, you certainly don*t look like thiiis~!! :(
But, this is about progress. I might get back to drawing him again once I feel more comfy drawing portraits. As of now, I am not content with this at all. But this is (also) probably my perfectionism speaking. Hm. Anyways, here it is :
TADAAA! I know you can hardly see it. I didn*t drew the left ... Unfortunately.
BLAH.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Quarterly Creative Project. The intro. ^^
Hello my dear readers :)!
Yesterday, I have been having a not-so-good day, and ended up writing a really depressive entry into my paper diary. Somehow there were several things placed on that diary and I had to go through them anyways and found some old ideas of mine, some tips on how to cope with having too many goals for one lifetime, and such. But first things first :
When writing all these things down (the ones I found last night), I had been reading the book "What Do I Do When I Want To Do Everything?" by Barbara Sher. Well, the German version, of course. Anyways, this book deals with a certain type of people, which Barbara Sher called "scanners" : Their interests have a broad variety, many think they have to put everything into their job to really enjoy it, but since they are never completely fulfilled with doing only one thing out of their interests, they suffer greatly and in the end most likely quit.
I found out I must be one of those people, and it was at first not really easy to accept my "milestones" as what they were. In fact, I had forgotten long after working with the book that I even had milestone moments in life, and maybe that was what pulled me down.
However, I went through all these old ideas, and I stumbled over the term "quarterly creative project", which is exactly what it sounds like : You choose something to do creatively for the next three months and work your way through all the ideas you have, concentrate on one topic for a quarter of a year. I wasn*t sure what to choose but since I had tried to draw portraits and I wish to become better, I will choose drawing portraits as the first challenge for three months. I hope I will finally be able to draw shadows for real (Since this is the biggest trouble I have with drawing portraits), and that I will learn new techniques and get to draw a LOT more :).
I of course don*t want to give up other things, and I might end up doing them, too, but I find the idea to work on something that intensely really thrilling!
Here*s the first portrait of the series. The one I worked on today. Let*s see how my portraits look in three months, shall we?
I will keep you updated. And yes, I put the original there for comparison. See you later, alligator!
Yesterday, I have been having a not-so-good day, and ended up writing a really depressive entry into my paper diary. Somehow there were several things placed on that diary and I had to go through them anyways and found some old ideas of mine, some tips on how to cope with having too many goals for one lifetime, and such. But first things first :
When writing all these things down (the ones I found last night), I had been reading the book "What Do I Do When I Want To Do Everything?" by Barbara Sher. Well, the German version, of course. Anyways, this book deals with a certain type of people, which Barbara Sher called "scanners" : Their interests have a broad variety, many think they have to put everything into their job to really enjoy it, but since they are never completely fulfilled with doing only one thing out of their interests, they suffer greatly and in the end most likely quit.
I found out I must be one of those people, and it was at first not really easy to accept my "milestones" as what they were. In fact, I had forgotten long after working with the book that I even had milestone moments in life, and maybe that was what pulled me down.
However, I went through all these old ideas, and I stumbled over the term "quarterly creative project", which is exactly what it sounds like : You choose something to do creatively for the next three months and work your way through all the ideas you have, concentrate on one topic for a quarter of a year. I wasn*t sure what to choose but since I had tried to draw portraits and I wish to become better, I will choose drawing portraits as the first challenge for three months. I hope I will finally be able to draw shadows for real (Since this is the biggest trouble I have with drawing portraits), and that I will learn new techniques and get to draw a LOT more :).
I of course don*t want to give up other things, and I might end up doing them, too, but I find the idea to work on something that intensely really thrilling!
Here*s the first portrait of the series. The one I worked on today. Let*s see how my portraits look in three months, shall we?
I will keep you updated. And yes, I put the original there for comparison. See you later, alligator!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Cannot stop crying.
This morning, when I came into the living room, I was told that Robin Williams has died. I won*t go into all the details I read about until now, but at some point, I couldn*t bear the pain of this loss anymore, and I wrote a little poem for him :
I don*t know where to start, and I don*t know where to stop.
The feelings I have so hard, and I cannot stop the sob.
A shelter I am looking for is never there to hide.
From this and all and everything, I don*t know what*s inside.
Of me and you and everyone, can*t be absorbed in the tide.
I miss you, that is all I know, may God be by your side.
The feelings I have so hard, and I cannot stop the sob.
A shelter I am looking for is never there to hide.
From this and all and everything, I don*t know what*s inside.
Of me and you and everyone, can*t be absorbed in the tide.
I miss you, that is all I know, may God be by your side.
It is so hard to think of all this, and even though I know I should not focus on the loss, but focus on the happy moments he gave us, on the thought-provoking quotes, etc. He will be greatly missed.
One thing I want to express, however, is that all you who are suffering from depression (or other mental illnesses) are not alone. I have been in situations when I tried to take my own life, but obviously I was never successful. I was in a mental hospital twice in my life. A friend* of mine commited suicide when I was 18 ... She was one of the greatest people I have ever known, and an inspiration to many people around her. I have felt like ending my life was the only option available for me at many times in my life.
If you are in the same situation, please reach out for help. I have done so, too, and sure, there may be people who could not take it seriously, but all in all, most people are much more althruistic and willing to help you than you might think, and I am speaking from my own experience. If you want to, talk to a friend whom you trust, or a family member, or a teacher. Anybody whom you can trust really ... Most people would regret not having had the option to help you in such times if you did commit suicide. I really don*t want this to sound like PRESSURE, but I know I did wish I knew about my friend*s struggle back then. And I regret not having had the power to help her. If you like, you can also call a helpline. (For example, this page (I hope linking is okay?) provides a list of helplines.) As far as I know, you needn*t state your full name or could also go anonymously, and you can talk openly to somebody who is not involved and who is not as subjective as your friends or family are. Whatever you prefer, please do it.
I wish I could provide help to anybody who is suffering from depression or other mental illnesses really, but I don*t always know whether what I say would help somebody in need. :( However, I see everybody as somebody who can teach me about things. You are special in your own way, and you CAN inspire others!! Please remember that.
Okay, this got a little rambly, but I hope you are alright ... If you have anything to add, please feel free to leave a comment. If you want to comment, also feel free to leave a comment. And if you don*t want to, that*s perfectly fine as well.
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